Getting a doctor is not easy….
Apparently good doctors have long waiting lists. Dr. W who my coworker J had suggested, could not see me till April. Jan from my OB suggested Dr. A of RWJ. Even she was busy till atleast the 15th of March so they got me an appointment with Dr.K . They tell me she is good. She has practiced in NY city for a long time and had recently shifted here and had patients still coming all the way from NY to see her at RWJ.
I hope she is not one of those snooty doctors who just lay down the law without giving any details. I really dont want to go doctor shopping again. It should not be so hard to find a doctor with who is approachable and who I can trust blindly. Cancer if that is what this is is an incredibly complex journey and I definitely need a good medical companion all the way. I want a doctor who will explain the logic behind her actions, a way of reassuring me she knows what she is doing and has my best interests in sight. I have a Monday appointment which ironically is N2’s birthday. We have a Captain America party scheduled that day at his school.
I think what I need most at this point is a diagnosis. Cancer or not, Malignant or benign I just need concrete answers. The probabilities and uncertainties clouding my mind are terrifying.
